WHO AM I ?

By Nirvan Anand

That one thought that keeps on haunting me is WHO AM I ? Since I started to live  like “to be civilised” I kept wondering with such thoughts.

Then I thought WHO OWNS ME? Hmmm..  I think its my mother coz, she was the one  who gave me all that love, affection etc  whenever I needed it. But does that ownership is complete coz there r others  too father, brother, sister, wife, my daughter or my friends, business  associates , society at large. 

Hey... I am confused.. I need to know, do all these people really own me, to be honest I don’t really feel so coz I have the Liberty to live my life my way, I do things, I choose objects that I feel I like, no one  really stops me. Hmmm then maybe something else owns me which has all the powers to refrain me from my wishes, desires, my weaknesses. The power that gives me the strength to do different things I want to do in my life also stops me from doing so many different things that i would want to do. 

What is that power? Is it my religion ?

Hey.. let me ponder .. Hmmm I think it has to be my religion, I have learnt so many good things as a part of my religion and I think it has to be my religion that gives me all the power.

So should I conclude that my religion OWNS me. Maybe Yes Maybe No. So its still a Maybe type answer. But why “maybe” I need to be sure now that its my religion that owns me. But is this ownership complete in itself? Why not it’s the religion that takes you to GOD, it gives you your identity, it gives peace, righteousness etc.

Hmmm... but then who owns this Religion? Do I own my religion? Or my religion owns me? Why this paradox? I am confused again.

Does this religion belongs to a group of individuals? Who interpret religion the way they understand or the way they are made to understand. OR Does it belongs to an Individual who thought of it and by his relentless efforts designed the path that leads us to GOD.

Hmmm...so I think now it’s the GOD that owns me. So HE OR SHE has all the ultimate powers to give me or take away from me whatever HE or SHE wants.

Am I sure that GOD is ultimate and no one owns GOD.. Let me guess and excuse me for my mistakes if I think, Does a Temple owns the GOD? Or A Mosque owns the GOD? Or Church owns the GOD? Or a Synagogue owns the GOD? Can Humans keep GOD in lock & key? Or GOD is omnipresent?

I am so confused ... Let me ponder.. I think it’s the Temple that owns the GOD .. owns me. I need to now surrender .. yes its the temple that owns me.

But Hey.. whats wrong with me ? Who owns the temple? Priest , trustee or fellow human like me or maybe me. Coz I own the temple at my home.

So what do I Conclude I own myself...

Wow what a conclusion !.. But then WHO AM I?

To be continued...